Wind spills scented air
Yesterday held wave cascades
Beware too clear dreams
Friday 1 December 2023
Sunday 26 November 2023
Saturday 25 November 2023
Thursday 12 October 2023
Prelude to Seeing A GP
Good afternoon, medical practitioner! Before we begin would you mind if I laid out some parameters, rough guidelines, for our conversation? No? Great! I'm going to keep this simple. During our chat where would you like to set the honesty level? Yes, all but one point applies to both of us.
Imagine a knob, like an incremental volume knob except this sets the degree of honesty that we both try to adhere to as we talk. There's certainly some subjectivity involved so don't feel nailed down. The knob has 10 steps each of which aligns to a percentage of truth in what we say. 1 would be like trading stories from Mother Goose while 10 would be like a no holds barred seriously pious Catholic confession. Space the numbers in between as evenly spread out as you see as fairly reasonable. The content and tone of our back and forth will over a space of time settle into a functional scale.
As I trust you remember, at the beginning I said that there was one more level just for you. Only I can turn it to 11, like a Motörhead amp. That act will only occur if you become close minded, arrogant, hostile and/or incredulous OR obviously incompetent. In such an eventuality I will turn the control knob to 11, setting a sequence of events into motion. First, Motörhead's "Dancing On Your Grave" will blast out of the not-so- innocent-now device (which until now has just looked like a bakelite box with a power switch, a 1 to 11 meter and the aforementioned knob. Then, due to your absolutely and unforgivably vicious behaviour, you shall receive a blow across your mouth with a baseball bat which will propel the shattered remnants of your choppers down the tubes in your throat with the vast majority of the detritus finally settling in your appendix (after their twisty turny journey that's just where it all goes and nobody really knows why.…)
Do try to not think about gloomy stuff like Republicans, Teflon flaking off of pans, the threat of the return of corduroy and faux velvet pants, having your car radio get stuck on a 24/7 channel that talks you through randomly chosen surgical procedures. And all of that time you are stuck in your car in a traffic jam beneath a bridge that's blocking all of YOUR fave channels and ratcheting up your tension and anxiety to record levels that no one will ever know. Ever think about subways much?
Irony Writ Large
The U.S. Department of War existed from 1789 until August 10th 1949, on which date it was renamed the Department of Defence. Rather ironic that the Department of Defence has only engaged in offensive war. There has never been a serious reason to defend the continental USA.
Feeling and Learning
It is easier to take in information about a subject if you really don't care about it one way or another. If you don't care about a particular subject, if you are not emotionally invested in it, you are less likely to have firm opinions already deeply implanted about it and you will definitely have less of an inclination to defend what you know at any particular point in time. It takes a zealot to furiously defend, and argue in favour of, what they were originally taught about any given subject. "Not caring" is simply taking the emotion out of your relationship with your beliefs. The last thing you want when you're learning something new is an epiphany.
Saturday 7 October 2023
Friday 22 September 2023
Crouch
Trust not the mouldy men
Sewer crawlers to the last
Fetid foam floats past boots
The rushing steaming stream
Presents your ocular organ
With sights no eye should see
Feel the weakness in your knees
Quivering at first before
Morphing into spasms wild
The glottal gurgle will have
Its say until your nerves shut
Down the way….
(Did you remember to tell at least one person where you were going today? And for how long?)
(Soon you'll wish that you had.…)
Thursday 21 September 2023
Saturday 16 September 2023
Friday 15 September 2023
Saturday 9 September 2023
Friday 8 September 2023
Tuesday 15 August 2023
Monday 14 August 2023
Sin
I ran into a holy cow
While driving in my truck.
Right there and then
I did exclame, "shit!" and
"What the fuck??"
Then I did all I could do:
I ran it over once again
To make sure it was dead.
Then I bought booze enough,
Enough to guarantee,
That I would surely lose
My head along with that
Of some unsuspecting
Empathic friend I'd
Chosen to drag down
With me.…
Imaginary Sanctuary
DefCon 1) Maybe some of you can still run.
DefCon 2) Gather your kit and water, too.
DefCon 3) Now it's down to you and me.
DefCon 4) Crisp skin the winds waft aft & fore.
DefCon 5) This cinder,"Earth," the rock itself,
humans cannot vaporise but, of all
that once did thrive upon it, we'll
leave not a single cell alive.…
Friday 11 August 2023
Tuesday 8 August 2023
Life At Bedtime.…
D'you know that warm, relaxed feeling you get when you go to bed tired but not exhausted? A kind of lucid falling asleep? Nothing on your schedule for the next day? Give yourself boundless permission to feel good.…in this pillowed softness amidst fragrant mists… Morning is welcome to be as late as it pleases. And who really needs morning anyway…?
Monday 7 August 2023
Monday 15 May 2023
Balance
You hate me
I hate you
In perfect balance
Are we two
With nothing that
We have to do...
A relationship most
Perfect, ideal, and relaxed
Lay back, end tension
(I promise you won't
feel the axe…)
Friday 12 May 2023
We Fade Away
There are deaths that never
Seem to die
Shadows that need no light
Peace that demands
A fight to arrive
You ache to live yet
You'll never survive…
Prisms of seeming Being
Do you ever experience frustration? Has the thought that you might relieve that sense of frustration by engaging in a totally random and meaningless yet intentional act of violence? Have you ever considered yourself to be a singularity surrounded by masses of claymation approximations of the humans you were introduced to at the time of your birth?
Saturday 22 April 2023
Eligere Verum
Those sitting on the SCOTUS
Have morals that are bogus.
Lusting ever for more power,
Growing fat on all who cower.…
Thursday 16 February 2023
Grammarian Thought
Crows come in murders
When collectivised by a noun
Nouns, when collectivised
Are communist components
Of classless and free
Speech so,
Should homicide happen
Should it happen out of doors
Then crows will surely show
For crows also come with
Murders
As all assassins know.
Wednesday 15 February 2023
Face It
If you believe in love
If you believe in hope
You believe in myths
No different from a
Belief in ghosts
Monday 13 February 2023
Undead Prime
What can an ending mean for you
When there's nothing you've yet begun?
How can you sense the cold
Creep of nightfalls
When you have never seen the sun?
"The limits that you most dextrously use
To stay within the bindings
Lesser wraiths would have easily loosed..."
They are charming to we apart
Who merely look upon them but,
Cause terror in those who understand...
Those lace bracelets, spell-wrapped,
Snug 'round your wrists and hands
Await your waking of the Overwill
To project the Fear
That first cruelly maddens
And then assumes command...
(For Scary, with respectful affection)
Sunday 12 February 2023
Autodidact
I think that I am learning
Acquiring some discipline
Because my mind is open now
Some thoughts can get in
That doesn't mean I'm about
To open my mouth
And let them out
Dark Art
Within live paintings that
Painters will never paint
Poets know words that
Must never be read
Putting it out
All on the table,
If the weather is right,
Can prove to be fatal
Jaded Days
The way one grim issue follows the next,
Leaves me to believe that I'm
Still under some wizard's hex or
Maybe it's that same band of bitches
And I'm still cursed by trollish witches...
Twisted History
In all of the reading that I have done on the Great Depression, I've yet to find any proof of the government's fabled great Prozac Production Push or the New Deal's National Valium Distribution plan. Where's the missing history? The Alprazolam Emergency Plan, etc?
Political Op-ed (2/23)
Republicans are not fitting well into their jobs as Representatives. They'd be better off with a change of venue and trade their House seats for places in cans of luncheon meat. The IQ needed there even GOP should reach.
Holy War
If you find that God has become
Your active adversary, there's not
Much that you can do except
Keep your chin up, buddy, since
Your chances of being victorious
Well, there simply aren't any...
Saturday 11 February 2023
Explanation not Excuse
I write verse that others would
Not allow to even be
Of facts about how life begins and
Ends, of desire too terrifying for
Most of the sane to even comprehend
But I create none of it, I but observe
And write about as clearly as I can
Because wilful ignorance is worse
Than anything in this world that
You may see but perhaps not
Immediately understand
And that's about you and not me
Death Delivered Reluctantly
Death Delivered Reluctantly
If people would just behave
More courteously
Have aneurysms or heart attacks
Save me the sweat that needs be
Spent using hatchets or cutlery
It's not as if they'd be immortal
If they'd never encountered me
Or others of my kind who only wish
To free their souls from gross bodies
Of meat and gristle that'll only turn
To mould and worse, food for worms
When wouldn't they rather be recalled
By those who loved them while
They were vital and walked the Earth in
Search of beauty and of all
That life is worth...?
The End of Ends
I'm so filled with fury and with hate
That I want to eliminate this world
To watch it burn into toxic ash
Poison gas and the glowing remains
Of cosmic collisions and a rain
Of radioactive piss, the most fitting
Salute to what was doomed from the start
Once evolution brought to life
Pure pride and greed, the lust for which
Nothing mortal could ever satiate
That only an exploding star could
Purify and hope to clean and erase
The stain of from the sterility that is
At the heart of silent space...
The Human Dream
The best to hope for
From the future is
Quick and painless death
To prevent our blocking of
The progress of all
The other life on Earth
To which humanity is of
Less than zero worth
Wednesday 8 February 2023
Death, Take 1
People use language but many are not consciously aware of what they are actually saying. Ignore the sounds of the dying and say, "Oh, I know what he means!" What are you? Some god? It's just a fluke if you're right.
You may just have stolen the last meaning that he gave away...
Death, Take 2
I don't care if you are encircled, heated, spiritually protected by nine generations of family, or the beacon shining from your heart has pulled your friends near to thee.
Were you the central bone of a
Thriving, packed, human mass
You'll still die all alone.
Ukraine & Russia: Fight Yesterday Today
Race/social memory is self-perpetuating and if the recollection of Stalingrad can be rekindled by the Russian leaders, the outcome of the conflict will never be certain. Both politicians and pundits often toss about the phrase "hearts and minds," like a magic spell that will give birth to victory. They fail to understand the people. Minds can come up with the plans but it's the hearts that carry satchel charges that will be stuck to tank's bases, hearts who are the water in the tsunami of the human wave and whose final shot is fired from the grave.
The technically advanced Western power makes an error if they forget the power of dead grandfathers who gave their lives and more to annihilate the Germans at Stalingrad. Russian conscripts may be untried and poorly equipped but they have a supply train of history that is fuelled by pride. The Russian soldiers do not fight for Putin, they struggle on for the the honour of dead family, of whom they have many millions, for the glory of a history without end that has now fallen 'pon hard times like many times before. Western tech is powerful and frightening but, is it strong enough to crush and eliminate this enemy's history, its pride and its will to live? Napoleon thought so and where is his Empire now? Germans, Swedish, Islamic armies and others, today enrich the black soil from which comes the blackest bread that feeds the subjects of German genocide alongside plagues and famines, all of the ways in which the Russian people never died.
Tuesday 7 February 2023
The Monster Reimagined
If you believe that you and your body are now mature and have nowhere to grow, could you please explain why I should leave you still breathing when you lack a spirit you will never own...
Aiming Vaguely
Efforts to cause meaningless phrases
Lets language daily escape
That's empty of corpus or spirit
While the imprisoned with prejudice
In subtle ingenious ways
Routinely engage in incest
Using foreign names and alien parts
Comprehension
Death is but a photograph of a
future that you have yet to meet.
Just wait, you will see that
you occupy the same negative
space in which your absence
will be placed
Horticulture
The obvious life
A liver mill
Organs swim unnoticed
Paddle by paddles
That steal the power of
Passing wheels
Aiming Vaguely
Efforts to cause meaningless phrases
Lets language daily escape
That's empty of corpus or spirit
While the imprisoned with prejudice
In subtle ingenious ways
Routinely engage in incest
Using foreign names and alien parts
Monday 6 February 2023
Competition
To win the race, to be the first past the gate, loses its charm if the slugs you did defeat make you the centrepiece of their extravagant victor's feast.
Saturday 4 February 2023
Humanity
We're committing genocide of the Earth's biosphere
While we are still living here
That should spark the realisation
We are not Earth's finest creation
Life that experienced the same
Sea-to-land transition
Is led by its most toxic expression
Nazi Party
Ever been to a Nazi party?
The best of drink,
The finest food,
Teutonic music,
Waving flags to
Set the festive mood.
A larger dance floor
Than 54’s but lie unseen
The lasers, strobes and fog
Machines that help
Hide our debaucheries,
At a price and all for free.
Intoxication for the nation,
Everybody’s expectation…
Power so nigh keeps you high
While you slip from lip to thigh.
Another glass of nepenthe, dear?
Perhaps display your über rear?
If we should ever settle here,
In heaven lit by jackboots’ gleam,
Leather starved for your wet scream,
‘Til tingling toys awake your skin,
Both what is seen and that within.
Enter now our custom dream…
Guests engorge, indulge their fancies.
See? There’s Goebbels in his wife’s panties.
We’re here to satisfy, we are the reason why
You came here free, of your own will
But moonlight forges bonds of steel.
Now, sunk in our philosophy
Your soul is ours, feel our power,
Possessed flesh is all you’ll see.
We’re so glad you obeyed
Our desire’s invitation,
For forever now you’ll
Ever help to swell
Our population.…
Homeless and Bored
What’s up, old cardboard box?
We’ve done another day
It look like tonight gonna get real dark
Where in Hell we gonna gets us a’tarp?
Sometime old coats you can gets free
From one or ‘nother those Societys
But boots, fuck, they’re a bitch
Still, can’t do dick ‘bout it now
Stop thinkin’ them boots, just stop thinkin
We should be damn good ‘til
We do those next break-ins
So say, paper palace, let’s just
Get down to the drinkin!
NyQuil, NyQuil, friend and energy
Take this dark and cold away from me
NyQuil, NyQuil, trusted remedy
Shut my brain and set me free
NyQuil, NyQuil, heroin of the poor
Gots nuthin better but you’ll do for sure
NyQuil, NyQuil, you comfort us poor
Cause us poor fuckers need smack too
At least we got green heaven
In cheap bottles made for one
If you can score it, NyQuil and gin
Taken together, make strong medicine
Green heaven and gin will knock you down
Until grey morning rings another round
Friday 3 February 2023
Dark Wanders
It’s the same with all you lose
Every room gets dusty
Every place gets dark
Except the bushes in the park
Lit up by the night
And necessity,
My last escape from what used to be
Thursday 2 February 2023
Adipose Overdose
Now I’m wondering if I’m suffering that killer plague of fear that’s our loudest alarm. Soon some John Doe will be eaten, what remains mutated by cosmic force we don’t understand until it’s the biggest piece of furniture
or anything in the office: the mass of a desk, computer, a whole IT station couldn’t compete with such a mountain of meat which is still expanding. Exponentially.
In order to avoid a less gruesome fate, nuclear
weapons are the one sure cure.
An ICBM won’t simply scratch it,
Adipose will vanish, disintegrated.
With no more war, nothing to fight,
We’ll only have added a novel new shade
To our great Northern Lights. Won’t that be rad?
Cool?
Hot?
Great?
Wednesday 18 January 2023
The Final Footnote
The high somatic and psychic demands of creativity make of it a pathogen.
Use at your own peril.
Chronic Insomniac Habits
Chronic Insomniac Habits
1. You don’t sleep.
2. You don’t sleep.
3. You don’t sleep.
4. You begin to talk to yourself and yell abuse at inanimate objects while you are awake anyway.
5. You wonder if you’d eaten that month.
6. You see the shadows of cats out of the corners of their eyes.
7. Sleep has become a forgotten concept much like the medicinal uses of mummy dust.
8. You stop talking to yourself and begin holding complete Socratic dialogues instead.
9. You receive a Holy Vision that temporarily revitalises your brain.
10. You go through the phone book for the wrong city calling possible meth dealers based on the numerological values of their names.
11. Luck bites and you freakishly happen to score.
12. Or, your luck sucks, you bite off your fingers and try to dry and smoke the bones.
13. You die of creeping gangrene, are buried but you still can’t sleep, so you begin a long conversation with Jimmy Hoffa, who can’t sleep either.
So It Is
The years fly by, people die,
Some day so will I
While hope is but one of
The pies in the suffering sky.
Saturday 14 January 2023
Creative Writing
“Creative writing.” What the fuck does that even mean? You can argue about degrees if you like but, whether you’re writing a sonnet or a user’s manual for a lawnmower, without creativity the job ain’t getting done.
Free Will
What’s free will? Free will’s the ability to do things to your body & mind that can cause irreparable harm simply because you choose to for the fun of it.
Thursday 5 January 2023
Client
I do recall one who
Was wrapped and strapped
In leather boots
But dissipated all her heat
In a look all too actress sweet
A few bills got her to the street
To try again with her charms petite
Random thought…
The odd thing is that death can become strangely attractive, if you stare at it long enough. Oh, not the dying part, the final result. How else do you explain funeral directors?
Images
Death is the perfection of a life
Death is its final form
After all of the changes
After all the rearrangements
Comes the silence of immobility
The entrance to eternity
Wednesday 4 January 2023
That’s How It Is
Death is a dream but do not expect to understand it.
If you already understand life then you are already half way dead.
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